Wednesday, October 28, 2009


For me, it all started with my favorite television shows. I would wait all week with great anticipation to tune in to Charlie’s Angels and the Bionic Woman. My eyes were glued to the tube, and blinking only occurred during commercial breaks. Afterwards, I would recreate the scenes, but something was always wrong. It was abundantly and blatantly clear that I would never possess the beauty, intelligence and of course, mechanical limbs. I was the wrong size and color, and life was not that of the Brady’s. Yet day after day I desperately tried to emulate what I saw on television and in magazines. Thus began my downward spiral of trying to compete with women and forces that were way out of my league and control.

It wasn’t until I was much older that I realized how many years I’d wasted comparing myself to pure fiction, stage makeup, weave and airbrushing. These actions damaged so many areas of my life, and stripped me of myself. I didn’t know who I was, or whose I was, or that I could survive. Those were the missing pieces.

My decision to create this blog stems from the desire to help girls and women suffering from ill effects (and all they have to offer) of low self esteem. You will see that I refer to myself as a survivor. I AM. But that certainly doesn’t mean that relapses don’t occur. Each morning, I have to make a conscious decision to make my day better than the one before. Do I do this every single day? Yes. Is it one of the most tedious things I do? Yes. Will I continue to do it? Yes, absolutely! My life and legacy depend on it. So, at the end of each day, I consider myself a Survivor of whatever has tried to pull me back into believing lies about myself. It is a never-ending task, but it does get better, and it does get easier.

God shows me every day that I am a gem in the rough, constantly chipping away at the dull parts until I am the beautiful and rare stone He created me to be.


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  2. Well said. I have a 3 year old and even she comments that "the other girls in her dance class of prettier dresses or have beautiful swirly hair" and I just cringe. :(

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  3. Tesa, I am so proud of you and your abilities! I said I was a Pretty Princess without reading your blog, however I do feel good in my own skin, so where it doesn't mean the same thing, it really does. I feel like a pretty princess. It is great what you are doing. You are talented! Keep doing what you do girl!


  4. You do make such a good point, I need to remember it each day also. I am being shinned and chipped on each day by a loving God.

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  6. Excellent post, Miss Tesa!
    Thanks for sharing your heart. Many, many young women need to hear what you have to say. God has given you the voice to reach them. I pray His very best for you.

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  8. I've joined two out of the three blogs so far you have listed. I'm curious to see the third one but wanted to comment here on this post first. This totally hit home for me wherein I never felt "pretty". I'd always console myself by thinking someday I would be. Well, I'm 44. Every so often I look back at pictures (let's say every five years or so) and think, what was wrong with my thinking then... I looked good. Then I think that time has passed and another five years pass and I look at pictures from the era before and think again... what was wrong with my self view.
    Thank you for sharing your story and strength.

  9. Hi there great post and something we need to remember each and every day! Now following from the MBC followers! Glad I found you!

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  11. Thanks for sharing. We grew up watching the same tv shows:) I look forward to reading more about your journey.
    Thanks for the follow. I am now, diligently, following you.

  12. I watched Facts of Life and wanted to be, not Blair, but Jo! I guess I was just clueless... which turned out to be a good thing. Great niche for a blog - I know this is a huge problem with young girls today.

    Making rounds and visiting my followers today! Thanks!